competition: Get it off your chest.

Do you ever think of me? Do you understand that My life is changed forever. Do you wish you could turn back the hands of time. To where I could still have My innocence's. Where I was untouched by the hands that changed My life? I still don't understand why you let him hurt me. I keep asking god to give me the strength. To forgive you for just letting it happened. I was never a child. I was broke from that never got to be a kid. I learned really quick. That life wasn't the fairy tales. I watched in the movies. I was the main character in My own horror movie. All I want from you is to tell me. I didn't do anything wrong. You say I was. How in the hell was I wrong when a MAN. Raped me at 10 and he was 45. It's been 10 years and you still don't talk about it. I'm tired of having nightmares. I'm tired of you not stepping up and telling me why you. Left me with him. Even when I would chase after you in your car. You turned your back on me. Why Momma?